Ever since I got back
A couple of weeks ago I was sent home from Navy bootcamp due to my depression and a lower back and knee injury. Being in the navy was a life long dream of mine and it kills me inside knowing I wasnt able to see it fully through. Ever since I've gotten back I feel out of place and like most of my family looks at me with disappointment in their eyes. I feel like a major disappointment and its bringing me down hard. My mood has been switching day to day but the disappointment is always there. This past Friday I watched my division graduate and I was very proud of them, but also jealous and the depression hit hard that day.
@Mike722
I think a lot of this is playing out in your head rather than in reality. You sound like you have incredibly high expectations of yourself. You need to start being kinder to yourself.
I sometimes feel this way due to not completing university. I sometimes feel like I let my mum down because she knew I was capable of great things. But I believe that things happen for a reason. This has happened to you to make way for something even better.
I hope you're okay 😊
Jem 💜