Extreme Loneliness

@raspberryOwl8176

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Hi everyone,

I just wanted an unbiased opinion on something that Ive been going through for a while now. I was with my boyfriend for five years - three of them were long distance and we worked hard to be together. Our relationship was very genuine from both sides, but looking back, I realize that our anxious personalities and immaturity given our age made it quite toxic. Our breakup was messy and I didnt see it coming. However, it has now been a year, and my ex and I have had healthy and balanced conversations about what went wrong and really worked to gain a solid understanding of everything. He also has been very sincere in his apologies, and has given me space to make my decision about wether I want to get back together. I really do, however I am struggling to move on from the past. I understand why things happened, how I contributed to the unhealthy dynamic, and I genuinely believe we have a much healthier relationship now given we have done a lot of work with therapy to understand our behaviors. However, I still feel hurt and dont know how to rebuild trust. Its even more difficult because he is my best friend, and during this pandemic he has been there for me every step of the way. If anyone has any advice, I would really appreciate it. Just please be kind and understand that this situation is very personal to me, so I would prefer to not hear the typical get over it.