Eyes opened
In the past, I used to be depressed and cut myself, trying to leave the world. The therapist my family found for me was no help, so I bullshit my way through it to get out. My family was sitting with me, so there was no way for me to ask for help.
It's been years and I blocked most of it out for why I did it. This past weekend, it all came to me so fast that I couldn't stop crying. It's been 4 days now of just full on not wanting to do anything, cry, secluded myself and make sure my 2 kids dont know I'm sad.
I have no insurance and we only have one income by my husband that we barely see because of the bills and food for us. I dont know how to get help when I can't afford it. But I also know i need to talk to someone about my past and how to move on from it.
@selfconfidentBeechwood6496
I do hope you will think about reaching out on this site, find a listener you get on with, and try and talk it through for free, here.
Alternatively you could ask your family for help in paying for the sessions, if that is remotely possible. I suspect that won't be to your liking but it might be a way.
