Family hurts me, I'm suffering alone
I've been falling in and out of depression for the past two years and it's just gotten really bad. I'm not good at talking about it with anyone, and when I try to, my family tells me that I'm overreacting, and that I'm just crazy. My emotional and mental state have gotten really bad in the past two years, and my step dad emotionally and mentally abuses me with his rude comments, teasing, and remarks, and my mom just says that it's the way he is. Because of this, I can't tolerate anything and I've become bipolar and mean. Alone, I'm depressed, and I'm just not doing okay. I feel like I'm going crazy and I don't know what to do. I don't want to not be depressed anymore because it just seems like it's a necessary part of my life and that I don't deserve any better.
You do deserve better! If you hadn't done anything wrong in life, why is it that you don't deserve anything but the best? Hadyou everconsider going to a counselor or therapy?
I used to have a counselor, but she retired. I don't trust people with my problems becuase when I leave, I'm entrusting them with the deepest part of me. My mom said that if I go to the therapist/counselor, they'll put me in a mental facility because I used to cut, and also I'll be forced to take depression medication.
How do you know what your mom said is true? Did she ask around? Perhaps there's an alternative way to things like this that your mom didn't know of. I'm not a professional by any means, but I thinktalking to someonedoes make a difference. The more you hold in, the easier it is for you to break. Try letting your emotions flow for once because you can only hold in so much. Because I believe if you can handle all those emotions, you wouldn't have cut yourself to divert the pain elsewhere. Find a support group. Try talking to people who are experiencing what you're going through.Don't force yourself. Say as much as you want but you must try in order to see results, in order to change your life. I wish you all the best in life. And remember, EVERYONE and that includes YOU deserves the best if you hadn't done anything wrong in life. Cheers!
P.S., I'll continue to reply you here if you want me to :)
Thanks for the advice n.n You've offered me the most help than anyone else
You're welcome, sweetie!
Now smile! Even though I can't see it. Just smile. Lol
