Feeling Hopeless
I'm not sure if anyone will be able to see this but hi I'm a new user here, my name's Jenny and I was compelled to download this app just today after having another one of my mental breakdown. At this point I'm just really damn tried, I'm only 18 and all I really want to do is fall asleep and never wake up again. I have absolutely no motivation to do anything and when I do have motivation my anxiety prevents me from doing it or my self esteem gets shot down by my parents who belittle me every chance they get. I can't remember the last time a positive thing was said about me by them, and honestly I can't blame them because I hate myself more than anyone could hate me. I just feel like too much of a failure and I don't know what to do, which is why I'm here. Even if nobody sees this I just needed a place to kinda rant, thanks for your time.
@navyBlueberry7649 i'm very sorry to hear that. All of us with depression have those thoughts. That is just ilness we have to cope with. If you are feeling very low I advise you to seek professional help. You can always come back here and find support. We understand what you are going through.
Greetings & Salutations,
I am Abraxas. I am new here and have been going through some stuff. Please know that it is quite hard for me to muster up the courage to have this conversation. I am not going to refrain from hiding any details so this is going to be rather long.
On 15th May, 2015 I attempted suicide. Yes, it has been quite some time.
I've already burnt my mind dragging myself till now. I don
@GuardianAbraxas
How often people surrounding us don't seem to comprehend the troubles with which we suffer.
I hope it gets easier for you. (I don't know if these words make sense bcz if someone tells me the same exact wording it does not help with the situation...not even 0.01%)
I myself was thinking about committing suicide today because everything appeared to fall apart yet again.
For that meaning part, I feel the same.For how many years I have just dragged my life. My whole teenage! the meaningless life!
Every day passes by with me being more unhappy with myself.
Each day passes, I achieve nothing!
The little happiness that fills me, sometimes, is when I am fantasizing about my crush. Ah! but he won't ever be mine... perhaps he should not be'? I don't know.
@GuardianAbraxas I just want to say that I'm glad your here today writing this post 3 years on. You have great strength to keep persevering, don't let the darkness consume.
@navyBlueberry7649
You feel luck of self estem...seam nee more compasion.. How could you lift yourself ...what makes you have luck motivation- It's easy to be critical towards yourself.
