Feeling so awful

I had, and am still having, thoughts of self-harm the past few days. Feeling so hopeless and alone, with no one to talk to. The people I love have so much on their own plates that I hate to add more. I have a therapist appointment tomorrow, but it is with someone I've never met before and who won't be able to see me again until mid-January. I've gone to this clinic before, so they know my history and I get my meds there. I'm feeling so awful now!