Flashbacks
Is it normal to have flashbacks or sudden boost of memories of someone you're trying to forget? That person is someone who has a big impact on my mental state and I'm trying to erase everything about him. Aside from family and work problem he's one of the reason why I'm starting to doubt my sanity. The feeling that sometimes I'm fine that I already accepted this and that then suddenly I will cry and imagine that he's happy with his new one now, that its not me anymore and I hate it. I hate being like that. I dont care if he move on already, what I hate is that he's still in my mind destroying every bit of my patience and peace of mind. I did everything to forget him, I'm distracting myself like work here and there sometimes I convince myself that he's happy he's better off with someone who's near him unlike me that is far from him. I'm trying to be positive but damn this flashbacks! I hate it and I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to be like this till new year I want to finally move on and have a fresh start. oh my god!
This is exactly how I feel right now. I know what you mean by being okay that they have finally moved on but its the flashbacks that I also struggle dealing with at the moment. Whats been helping me so far is reminding myself to be kind and compassionate with myself, my past conditionings and my patterns. know that u can unlearn all of them.
I've been reading a book called letting go by David Hawkins and I learned that it helps to simply acknowledge the feeling instead on focusing on the thoughts/flashbacks and to release the desire for giving it meaning. When you focus on letting go of the feeling, the thoughts/flashbacks will eventually go away. I am still in the process of letting it all go and I understand how difficult it is everyday... sending you love and light wherever u are. 🙏
