Having a bad day use this thread to vent

My whole entire body hurts, it's been getting harder to sleep therefore making my pain worse, and my depression has gotten a bit worse but I'm glad for the 7Cups community, and I'm so glad I can be a part of it. <3

My mom took me to my 'new' therapist today, and they had me leave the room, but I was secretly listening through the door; there were people walking by me who actually looked at me weirdly as I tried to listen, lol. (I have no reason to go to a therapist, but my mom says there's something wrong with me so I have to).

Anyway; ever since i've gotten older and older, I seem to forget more and more things. Because of that, I've had trouble remember most things about my past. So, while I was listening to my mom, I heard her talk to her about how one day my mom and I had gone to this place for birthday parties and events to sign up to do a birthday party for me. She said it was around third or forth grade. When we got there, apparently my entire class was there. My mom said she had asked one of the parents there what the party was for, and they replied with "My daughters birthday is today, and we invited the whole class. There is one student who we didn't invite, because my child said they didn't like them, and nobody did, apparently." Then my mom said she saw me ask one of the people from my class "Hey! What are you doing here?" then my mom apparently realized that I was the one who never heard of the birthday party and I wasn't invited. Apparently my mom has had a different opinion on me since that day, and my mom said she felt really guilty for me.

If you don't understand what I'm trying to say exactly, there was this kid in second grade who spread a rumor about me (from what I remember) which made nobody like me. I moved to a different area of town, so I was able to make friends in my new school, and only about one kid knew me, but didn't know it was actually me. There are kids in my school who know about kids from my childhood, though.

I wrote a lot, haha.

@harrytheunicorn

Psst your my inspiration Harry!

having a rough time detoxing from medication

i worry about tomorrow. always like this. at night i just dont want to sleep because the time will be shorter. but i always feel tired and sleep early. i dont want to go to work tomorrow. its childish isnt it..

I woke up feeling really lonely. I miss the warmth of a hug and the peace that laying in bed with your love one provides. I feel kindda bad that none of my boyfriends have loved me and Ive loved them all. Instead I am laying on my bed, staring at the ceiling..Alone. How many guys had offered me their friendship yet they dont answer my texts. Do they do this on purpose? Confuse you to the point you dunno how the hell to treat them? Not that that is a problem cuz as magically as they appear they disappear from my life. Having created so much hurt and each one leaving their footprint of pain behind. Just leaving me with a collection of worthless memories and missing them. Maybe nobody will ever love me.