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Help! New! BF broke up with me, pushing away -depression and chronic pain

User Profile: energeticLion5544
energeticLion5544 May 19th, 2018

My boyfriend and I broke up 6 weeks ago after being together for 2.5 years. He broke it off because of the fighting that was happening towards the end and he was depressed (which he never told anyone and this is the first time he has had it) due to an accident that leaves him with constant pain. He was withdrawing and I felt neglected. I did not know or realize he was depressed. He has always been a calm person. He has a family history of depression so I guess I should have picked up on some of the symptoms. But he was very good about hiding his depression and the amount of pain he was in from his accident. He also has a lot of issues from childhood and has never discussed his feelings about them, he suppresses a lot of feelings/issues. He now says he doesn't know if I am the right person for him even though upto a few weeks before our break up, he said he saw a future with me and would always say things like that throughout our relationship. While it wasn't perfect, we had an amazing relationship, lots of love, patience, chemistry, fun and laugher. We were fight a bit at the end but I didn't realize he was so stressed out. We are currently still in contact but he only wanted to text 1/week. I did see him one day and beg him to get back together. I apologized for my wrong doings but he said he couldn't get back together right now even though he loves and wants me because he is not mentally well and is blocked from emotionally connecting now. He is worried that he will get worse. He does not want to keep leading me on. He tells me to move on but when I ask him if he wants me to let go, he says no but that he cant promise me anything. He says he is not sure if I am the right person for him. He says its like I am on the opposite side of a river that he cannot cross and he feels empty inside. If he were to agree to being together, it would only make him put on a face and that it wouldn't be fair. He is now willing to see me 1/week and talk a bit but wants space. He says he will see me for my benefit as he saw how upset and in pain I am but that he doesn't really need to see me. He promised that he would call and start getting help but hasn't done so yet. He talks about our relationship with a lot of negative things which isn't the reality of it. but then he says that a relationship like ours is hard to find and is confused.

I am having the hardest time of my life. I love him dearly, I want him to get better, I want him to be happy and remember the good times. This has completely broken my heart. I have never felt this much pain in my life. I realize I cannot beg him to come back or convince him to call for help, he needs to do it on his own. But waiting around is killing me. I have stopped eating and sleeping. Only the past week have I started eating a bit again and sleeping more.

Are there any happy endings? Do they come back?

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User Profile: CalmWhisper22
CalmWhisper22 July 21st, 2018

@energeticLion5544

Sorry that you broke up with your boyfriend and no one has replied until now. Yes, it is hard when those with depression hide it really good from others and those that care about them don't really know what is going on. Holding things in and not letting all of that out is bad for folks and eventially does build up and then bad things happen like splitting/braking up with friends and loved ones.

1 book that might help is the 5 love languages

Maybe take a look at DBT and CBT and see if they help any.