Help me

Well first of all, you deserve to live @GoldieLox98 ❤️

Life comes around once, and it's precious. And anything that feels too big now, will diminish in time. And your ability to handle it, to keep it in perspective, can also improve.

For me, talking helped. And also learning more about myself, questioning my thoughts and feelings, being my own best friend. All of those helped me identify what's important to me. And life is important. For who of us knows what's just around the corner? And it's a great adventure finding out. It may not always be easy, but it's worthwhile.

So be gentle with yourself, take things one step at a time, talk about how you feel, whether with friends or anonymously. But don't do anything final, anything you can't come back from. Today is temporary, it will pass. And so too will whatever feels such a burden to you right now dear friend.

One thing I try to remember is that you deserve to live simply because you're you. Your worth doesn't come from anywhere else, you're just born with it and it never goes away. Any stories you may tell yourself about not being loved or not being deserving are false, because you're inherently loved and worthy.

Basically I'm trying to clumsily sum up in a secular way one of my favorite passages from Henri Nouwen: "Remember: You belong to God from eternity to eternity. You were loved by God before you were born; you will be loved by God long after you die. Your human lifetime...is only a part of your total life in God."

So, remember to take it one day at a time. As for haunting memories, see a counselor! The idea of therapy can be daunting, but telling someone whose job is to withhold judgment about any uncomfortable feelings you have can help so much. The counselor's view of your feelings can be different from yours, which can then offer you some insight as to where they're coming from and where you can go from there.

Best of luck, and don't lose hope!