Help me please

I think i have psychosis one day i got paranoid and became very religous and nonstop anxiety i was going to hell i was happy i became religous. The problem now is mind gets unconscious and enagages in violent fantasies and non real story based dellusions and sometimes i get horrible images violent and rhoughts and i would feel crazy then i feel suicidr is the way out i feel that there is no way to undo what my mind has racing thoughts about. Also i feel paranoid that someone is watching me everytime i do something or feeling someone is laughing at me. Once i was paranoid prisoners vould hack my internet and track me and my family down so anxious for hours it felt real idk now did you ever experience this.