Here's some things that happened to me during my childhood

In elementary school, I was the kid who no one liked, I was the kid who everyone judged, I was the kid who got bullied by everyone. People would never talk to me, I was the one who everyone laughed at and got made fun of. I would try to play with people during recess, but they always ran from me, I chased them, but they ran faster until I gave up. I did everything alone, games, recess, partner classworks, projects, etc. No one even talked to me and tried to get to me know. I would come home crying every day to my parents asking why are people doing this to me, what did I ever do to them? I would always say please let me be homeschooled, but they didn't let me. One day, this girl came up to me and started talking to me and I was so happy. But then the next day, she stopped talking to me, and I asked why, but she ignored me. And I remember going home so upset because I thought someone wanted to be my friend. Turns out my mom was friends with the girls mom, and so my mom messaged her mom to see what happened. Turns out, these two girls went up to her and said if she were to continue to be my friend and talk to me, they would not be friends with her and they would make sure everyone disliked her. And I was so upset, I couldn't believe it, I didn't do anything wrong to them or anyone. No one ever wanted to sit with me at lunch, so I sat alone. To the point where my own teacher had to make people let me sit with them. I tried talking to them, but they always laughed and ignored me. One time, it was the day I would see if I made the cheerleading team, and I walked into my class and EVERYONE told me I wouldn't make it, that I was good enough, that I didn't deserve to be on it. And I ran out crying because I didn't understand what I did to them to deserve this. In 7th grade, I was se*ually abused over 22 times. And on May 22nd, I was pulled in the boys bathroom by two boys. And I had to leave school for my safety, I didn't even get to say goodbye. The next day was my play that I was in, and only 6 people made it, and I made it. But I was told by the principal and my parents that I couldn't be in it, because I wasn't safe to be in school. The play we were working on for months, I couldn't be in it. And I was damaged, I didn't want to be alive anymore.