I can

At 25, I think my career is over. I work gig to gig, and it seems like the gigs have dried up. Or rather, the gigs are still there, but they dont want me.

I have chronic kidney stones which keep me in pain a lot of the time.

All of my friends and family seem to forget I exist for sometimes months at a time.

Ive tried meds; they didnt do anything for me.

I recently tried therapy again (against my better judgment), and my therapist fell asleep during the session.

I just dont know why this is happening to me, and I want it to stop.