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I have like two "closest" friends -they are not closest at all- which I have a friendship with but I was the only one giving and I didin t received anything at all. If I didn t talk to them they didin t and the worst thing is that two years ago, I finished a friendship with one girl because I was deppressed and had family issues and she didin t understand and get angry at me bc I couldn t go out with her -I was taking care of my mom and because I felt miserable, I didin t want to go anywhere-. One month later, another friend get mad at me because I couldn t go to her birthday and since then, all of the rest of friends and those two started ignoring me for a year -even though one of them told me that everything was fine-. That year I met a group of girls that were kind, supportive and positive -who surprise me because since the last yeard (when they started ignoring me) I started have anxiety and overthink too much and being much deppresed about myself and everything-and the birthday girl and a guy that I ve always considered as my bf -but he only talked to me when he need someone to talk to he didin t care about my feelings and he would angry if I tell hem that I was fine and positive- get mad at me because I went out those girls instead of them.

Since this summer, I haven t talk to them because I was tired of being the only one who gives. This last year I was feeling better. I still have anxiety and depression but I was starting to feel better about myself, my family and everything. I was fine since Friday. When uni finished I looked at my phone I was surpised when I was that the birthday girl have joined me into a group chat for going out on Christmas. We didin t have talk since July and now she "talks" to me ?!?! And suddenly, I start feeling anxious and nervous bc I couldn t understand why she would join me into a group with her, the guy and the other girl and many people which I didin t talk since... two years?? So now I am overthinking because I don t know what to do because it would be weird to talk to them like everytihing is fine and that we are best friends when we re not!

I know that many people have most serious problems than I so I m sorry to bother you with that but I don t have anyone to talk about. I will appreciate If someone could help me. Thanks :)