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I am a 20 year old female college student, who still lives at home with her parents. I help my mother who is semi disabled. Ive never been diagnosed with anything because my parents dont believe in mental illnesses. Ive struggled heavily with self harm in the past and lately Ive been itching to relapse. My mood goes through high amounts of happiness and then I crash and get sad for days and have sporadic anger. It scares me, I dont know whats wrong with me and I try to cope the best I can. Now Ive cut myself off from everyone and Im not sure what to do. Ive cried everyday for almost a week straight and I have anxiety and panic attacks. I just need support from someone, anyone.