I don't know where to start
I'm sorry I'm venting. I feel like I'll never get better. I have social anxiety and I finished school with one friend who seems to be overwhelmed by me which is understandable. I'm isolated to say the least. I have had depression for about 6 years now and it's gotten progressively worse. I have no one to talk to about depression since my family do not know about it. I don't know what the point is anymore. What is the point of getting a job just to carry on life and pay for your death. I want to speed it up but then my two family members I actually have contact with would be upset. I feel unwanted. My father contacted my mother last year and for the first time ever I saw what he looked like on a photo. But now he's gone again, I don't know why. I'm sorry that I'm so depressing. Thank you for reading.
@Lilrch Thank you for posting. I hope you find the support on here that you very much deserve.
@Lilrch
It's scary to come and talk about how you feel with others. It's showing a vulnerability to you and a willingness to change. I think you've already taken a huge step by reaching out to us and wanting to get help. If you ever need to talk there are so many listeners here who will talk with you. We believe in you.
