I feel like I should just stop looking at myself in the mirror.

I am so done w everything I feel like I should just keep digging and dump my self I hate the feeling I hate every second when I feel in such manner. I needed help post lockdown so went to a psychiatrist felt good after the dosage of medicine but Idk medicine might help for a while but the negative energy inside my head is very powerful compared to the medicine. I keep on thinking every second

Reason this all happened Is a relationship I am in w a guy from past 4 years it has been very difficult to snap out I am still struggling with the problems we're facing I love this guy he's a great guy although he has cheated on me several times I have been a very toxic girlf since day 1

We both need this relationship to work

It's really difficult as I am not able to make a decision

I am struck with this feeling

I've started hitting gym but everytime someone adores me I feel like it's all false

I feel like people will laugh on my every move

I've became a negative person