I hate life, I hate everything about it...

I am 15 currently in 10th grade constantly trying to fight my depression...

I don't think I can take much more but I have no choice but to live i'm not saying i'm going to commit suicide but honestly if I had a gun i'd have it to my head right now...

My depression started late 2012 just out of no where... I hate life, I told my mom I hate her for bringing me into this world, I constantly argue with her but then we talk like nothing happens.

I feel like no one understand me cause no one seems to help... I got arrested a week or two ago for "assault" I did it cause this kid has been bullying me since last year... I told counselors, principles, teacher what did they do? Nothing just tell him to stop but obviously he didn't... I wish I was dead... I got arrested, I have to attend alternative school, & I'm on probation... His parents want to press charges on me I assaulted him cause I snapped he through a plastic cereal bowl in my face after calling me a c*** sucker, a f*****, & a p****... The school cop witnessed everything why didn't they do anything to him or give him a bigger punishment then one day of ISS?

I wish I had someone to talk to but then again i'm scared to talk to someone caue what if they don't understand me & I don't feel comfortable telling someone my problems...

I hate life & Everything about it... The only thing that I can say actually makes me love life is my girlfriend she went through depression to but last year we moved from where me & Her lived so now shes far away from me... I miss her so much... We've been on & Off for 2 years due to being far apart... I might get to see her in december or next summer if I do it will make a big change... We are planning on her moving in with me when she's 17 which is in 1 1/2 years cause her parents hate me... Just cause the way I dress & How I look... I don't feel very comfortable posting this but i'd like to see y'alls responses if there is any... I'd rather post it then tell someone directly... Thanks.

I like to dress in all black I don't like