I just dont get how everyones not exhausted
Idk ive tried typing like 80 different posts and deleting them all because even trying to think and put things in words is so so so fucking tiring idk what to do about it but i dont have friends to talk to and my mom just sends me links to "10 ways to make yourself feel better naturally!!" blog posts if i try to talk to her about it so whatever. But i just dont see the point. I dont see how people think of their future and dont just want to lie down and not get up.
I cant do my work. Nothings fun. The idea of 60 more years of whatever the hell im doing now makes me wanna sob. I cant even be online without getting embarassed. I have to spend an hour psyching myself up to get food. I dont leave my room i cry over homework assignments i keep asking to drop out and my mom gives me some line about wasting potential. I dont want to do anything. I dont want to be anything. I just dont care. I really dont. And i sound like an edgy 13 year old when i try to talk about it but im just kinda tired. I think i was gonna ask for motivation tips the first couple times i typed this but now im just annoyed and more tired so im glad to have somewhere to vent i suppose
Thank you for opening up about your hardships and sharing this with us. To be able to freely vent is a good start as it lets you talk about what you are going through, without being burdened with keeping it all to yourself 💛
@apricottree these feelings are definitely not anything to be embarrassed about, and you're certainly not the only one feeling this way... which may or may not help much to know. But I guess I wanted to say... rather than these feelings being something "unique" to you (although your own personal experience is always unique) or something "wrong" with you, these are just such common feelings or symptoms that sound a lot like depression. Or, even if it isn't depression, it's still possible to have the same symptoms, and it's equally valid. So... in a way, the things you feel are valid and understandable, but they also can be changed and improved. I know it's hard to think about now, but you don't have to feel like this your whole life. You can get to a point where you're not feeling so exhausted and saddened by the thought of life and everything you "should" be doing. I won't pretend there's some magic fix like a blog post, it takes work and effort and introspection and change. But, what's the alternative, feeling like this all the time, or worse? So..I don't know, to me, it's worth it to reach out. And I'm happy that you have started to here, whether you want tips or venting, it's great to post and get stuff out and talk to someone if you can :)
And, to be honest, I'm exhausted too. A lot of people are. And to top it off, you're in the middle of a pandemic. This isn't good for anyone's mental health. Of course you'd be feeling worse lately! And it's completely understandable to not feel happy or excited about the future, when things feel so awful now. I think I had other things i wanted to say, but of course its escaping me now :P But I guess, I wanted to say thank you for sharing with us, and I truly wish the best for you. You deserve to feel like life is worth it and to look forward to your future. You deserve to feel happy.
