I’m tired.

I currently live with my parents and my mother’s husband’s family. His daughter, son, son’s wife and their children. I never really talked to them much and I like to avoid contact these people. They’re very nosy, extremely toxic people who have on several occasions talked about me. Including targeting me for sexual/non-sexual harassment. I have accidentally walked in on them in the restroom before without knocking.This has happened on a few occasions and the door isn’t always locked. I didn’t always apologize out of fear. It’s a long story but I’m not sure if it’s the main reason. Their attitudes existed the span of my parents relationship (4 yrs) and I’m 19 now. I’ve told my mother but I don’t know how to trust her anymore. They all pretend to be so happy go lucky. This ordeal has made my anxiety and depression worse. I attempted to OD last year due to the pressure I feel at home and work. I don’t enjoy leaving my room to do mundane things like cook food. I don’t believe I deserve this and it makes my blood boil just being here. I’m struggling with keeping a job due to my anxiety and depression. I don’t have many people I can stay with. I’m feeling like everyday I wake up that I’m slowly loosing grip of myself. I’m more agitated, guilt ridden, and paranoid because this situation mainly is what fills my head.