I need help
I'm depressed I drank my pain away which made it worse I thought about suicide when I was blacked out drunk now it cause problems with the wife and I because I chose to drink and it cause us to be rocky and added more depression because now I'm depressed that I made my wife upset, scared, and worried. I only think about suicide when I'm drunk or me and my wife are in a heated argument. I don't want to lose her
Are you able to see a therapist?
My wife is going to get me one she said told me yesterday she comes home today from her work trip. I hate that I did something self destructive thinking that alcohol was going to cure or take the pain away but caused ,ore problems in my life. I thought I had my drinking under control but I let my emotions get the best of me. I nervous to see my wife in a few hours I know she going to get on my case about all of this and put an imaginary barrier between us for 2-4days or maybe more normally it takes 2-4 days to be back where we were at happy married enjoying life with each other. I am nervous, scared, exhausted, frustrated with myself, and hurt that I hurt the love of my life,
@JayNative23
Adictionary is very difficult, I'm sorry. I think the best thing to do is to get professional help and focus on yourself and healing for now. You can't really give to others from an empty pantry as it were. Hopefully your wife and family will understand this and give you the time you need to recover.