I sometimes say I hate myself for no reason, it's a really bad habits
So I've been on this site for awhile, I've read many inspiriting and touching story about over coming depression and how to just generally deal and I try and do alot of things they suggest but I'm really struggling one one of those things to do, I do not have people around me I'm honest with about my depression , I don't really talk to people who know about because sometimes they don't have how to properly react or talk about it with, it use to feel like I was putting guilt on them and also I really starting to feel they frustrating at me not getting or al least looking like I was getting better even though talk about the bad stuff did actually make me feeling better because I wasn't keeping it in . I see the path to get better but I can't do it, I know they are many caring and supportive people on this site but writing out my feelings for me is limiting, I express more talking but will writing I can't find the words or my explanation of situation are just too long to write out. I really don't know what I'm to get out of writing this as I'm not really looking for advice but I'm not also venting, I don't know I guess I'll let this just be
I have the same issue. I can see the path and listen to people tell me how I am supposed to think or feel. I cannot tell people I have depression they either run away or say oh we all have it you will get over it. How can I explain something that most days I dont even know what it is or how to get over it. I have been told when I try to express how I feel I am a babbling idiot, and just make people feel bad, and that my facial expressions are all wrong or that maybe I should write down my feelings and share them. Then I am told that what I wrote is too long. It is like I should just give up and stop trying to talk or tell anyone how I feel. Then I start telling myself how stupid I am because I cannot tell anyone how I feel without taking too long or hurting their feelings. Therapy is good for telling me what I should think, but never really giving me a path to stop the madness in my brain. I feel like your last phrase Ill let this be, because honestly I am lost at trying to figure it out. I think I know what I need, but no one really cares enough to bother because then they might be giving in to me and letting me get what I want.
@peachSailboat2974 I am sorry that you had to go through such a tough situation. there are many people who overcame severe depression including myself . something I believe is that just like everyone is different the time and the path for overcoming depression is different too. What matters the most is even if it takes time , you are getting better. even if it is by 0.1% don't give up. figure out the things that made you feel better. you can come out from this. If you like you could talk to me about these things at anytime. we are willing to understand your feelings, your situation and help you out ☺