I suffer from depression and I am
Feeling strange all the time as if everyone is watching me is an unbearable feeling.
I would say that I prefer to abstain from being able to feel any kind of feeling in the world if I were given the gift of excluding the one who takes away the ability to improve everything.
During my 23 years I had my good and bad times, I say that the bad ones were prevalent and still are. There was a time when I knew how to control my conscience and forget everything bad, but now it all came back, and came back with full force to throw me into the deepest darkness that can exist.
I have been sinking for just over 3 months, not of my own free will, but because it is stronger than my desire not to sink but to float when the eventualities lead me to sink.
I suffer from depression and all that I just said is part of what it is and does to people. Of course, not all people react in the same way, some are stronger, others can't do it anymore, and not because they don't want to, but because they simply can't explain it.
Depression is divided into minor (mild or dysthymic) and major (severe). I was diagnosed with severe.
I went through the mild and arrived at the severe and from my experience I can say that the mild is not so serious, it can be controlled with a good treatment, because you feel unhappy gradually, sometimes. On the other hand, you want to live no longer so you don't feel the pain that this causes you.
Depression is a mechanism of despair ...
There are many treatments, but only 2% of the depressed population receive qualified treatments that help control, says John Greden, Director of the Institute of Mental Health Research at the University of Michigan.
I am not an expert in this matter, I just try to pass on what I understand, read, research and experience every day so that people know they are not alone in this. I often think that only I suffer from this, but today we have the most depressed population in human history. People who are unable to treat themselves or who receive wrong treatments, people who do not accept that this is a serious case and we also have those other people who do not suffer from it and think that this is cool, just a passing sadness, and I can say I live with people like that all the time and they are completely wrong.
It's not easy to feel every day that you don't fit into any social group, that people criticize you all the time, that they don't like you, make jokes. It is not at all easy to fight something when it has already cushioned all your feelings, when it makes you feel alone and does not pass.
It is not easy, but remember that all depressants use the expression
@KACOSMIC , Thank you for sharing. Hugs to you.
@faithlove1111 Thank you. I think that sharing our emotions and experiences and what we had been through is important, so we don't feel like we are alone or we are the only one who feel those things. We are all conducive to this, but we can fight, because that's what we are, strong and fighting people. Sending hugs 😘
There is so much there is it is relatable. I hope you are doing well. I make a choice not to feel. But some times I didn't have control. Those days are the worst. Thank you for the good information as well.
@Flornhope Hey, thank you. I hope you are doing well either and I totally understand what you're saying. Feel like we don't have control isn't that good. But we can learn with daily practice how to control our feelings, emotions and reactions we have to such events, we can choose to be knocked down by something or we can choose to see a positive sign and learn from it. I know that's not so easy like it's sounds, but we can try. Why not, right? Sending you hugs 😘
@KACOSMIC Things are ok for me at the moment. I'm working on controlling emotions and feelings and all that stuff. I don't have a problem with most of them they never come up. But the usual ones aren't as easy to control. I can always find something in the situation but it wouldn't be considered good probably closer to the other side or that coin. Thank you again encouragement and info I hope you are having a good day.
@KACOSMIC Hello, you probably remember me from that post in the long term listener thread. Trust me, I can understand what you're going through. I really would like to listen to you and help you. Depression is very stubborn but t's not something that people can't overcome. I know, of all people, from personal experience that it's not easy at all, but it's not impossible. Let's take one small step at a time. Text me any time, my listener account name is SilverMoon998. I also texted you from this member account. I'm really looking forward to hearing from you.
@honestPark3372 Hello, how are you doing? Thank you for connecting with me. I think we can do a great job together helping each other. Hugs 🤗
