I want to care about people
I've had a depression for two years, three years ago. I've been having depressive episodes ever since. Recently, a lot of things happenned around me, breakup, heartbreaks, almost all of my friends abandoning me... now I'm supposed to date a girl and I have new friends but I realize I... do not care about them. Neither do I care about my parents or my three sisters. I feel like they could die and I wouldn't feel a thing. I wonder what's wrong with me.
@pantner
Welcome to depression. It makes you feel like nothing matters, the nihilism is hard to fight sometimes. I wish I had something to say that would help you care more but honestly I dont. Im in the same zone with you. I couldnt give two shits about what my mother tells me about her day, but I stand there and listen because I know she needs an ear. You dont always have to feel like youre making a difference or caring, etc. your actions will speak and eventually things will come back to you and you will be picked up. We all do things we dont like, our present self dislikes it but our future selves will depend on it.
stay strong. <3
@pantner
The secret is to first tackle the challenge of getting to know yourself, then liking yourself, then loving and caring about yourself. Once you can do that, the rest will fall into place. Self care my friend. I dont know you, but i do care about you. Blessings!!!