I wasn’t cut out for this life.
I wasn’t made for this life. Overheard my parents saying I’m not normal. It’s true, I’m not. I can’t fit into this world and I don’t want to, either. I am extremely tired and reached the extent of pure exhaustion. It would have been better to have not been born at all. I’ll never cease to think the unborn are the luckiest.
You know what ? You are not alone in this actually.
we all think that our parents only see us that way but guess what ? My parents told me the same when i was young and i won’t lie this affected me badly growing up.
i am not saying I’m over it or any of my childhood tramas but i wish it won’t affect me that much
Hmm, I think everyone goes through this at some point, so no matter what it’s just a season, what comes after winter? Spring, summer than fall, so it is not the end, you will see better days as all of us go through our seasons.
What we have in these times is a limited scope, a temporary blindness, hitting a wall, can’t see passed that point, we feel trapped, but there is always a door, reading on stoicism, Buddhism and the Bible has many insightful ways to break these chains, same as goes the pastors, gurus and coaches that are available to mentor us or teach us, as Confucius states, when the student is ready the master will appear, when the student is truly ready, The master will disappear.
If you feel you are ready to break, than break through, not break down, break through by seeking these helpful people. I ask myself that sometimes, how many times have I gone to church this year? Not much or none? Than that’s whyy spirit isnt working, because I haven’t gone through the fellowship yet, how much times have I gone to the gym this year and tear it up? Not much or none? Well that’s why my body isn’t cooperating so I’ll give it a go. How much times have I gone to my preferred job/career, banked out some hard work money or creative accomplishments? Not much or none? Well that’s why my mind isn’t functioning well right now, have to give it a go. Than we will click back into place, like a truck, how can you expect it to run if it is not given gas, oil and a tune up once in a while? We have to give ourselves what we need in order to operate how we are suppose to.
Even the prophets from the Bible to Jesus and Muhammad say the same things as these philosophers, when we give, we get in return, so the more we emulate them, as Confucius says, we become the student, when we embody them, they disappear and we become them, the master is now gone because he is apart of you.
Don’t worry so much, like I do sometimes, just do what you have to do to let go and move forward.
