I wish I could follow through with it..
People like me deserve to fade away. I’m 25 going on 26. I have no housing of my own. Live with parents who talk about how I’m a failure at life. They’re right btw. I’m dumb as hell so I have a worthless degree. 30k in debt. A relaxed job that doesn’t pay well so it doesn’t even matter. I have nothing to look forward to in life other than constant ongoing health issues.
I wish I could go through with it and end everything. I hate being alive. I’ve always had, but it’s been worse for the past 6 years now. I wish everything could just be done and over. I’m an extreme failure who does not deserve to breathe.
ive been through 2 therapist now and it’s just been a waste of money and anti depressants don’t do anything either. Just wish I could go to the store, and then blank myself out forever.
@Sol3k
FRIEND!
I wish you could se that you are valuable, as we all are. We are all created in the image of God. Maybe your medication is to weak. You can check that out at your doctor by a bloodtest. I had to doubble my medication for depression after taking the test.
Write back to me if you want to or find a listener.
Helga.
@Sol3k Hi there, I am so sorry that you are struggling so much <3 I can understand how hard it is to go on with life when it feels like you have nothing to look forward to but that's not true, sometimes we just need to look a little harder. I have so many small silly things that helps me go through the day, like me wanting to see my plant flourish again or seeing a winter morning covered in fog : )
I know it is difficult to hold on when things are not going great but it won't always be that way. You are still very young and have your whole life ahead of you. It is completely fine to not know where you want to go or what you want to do just yet. Some people find their destination soon and for some it takes a little more time. I hope you be kind to yourself while you figure things out <3 Take care.
