I wish I could tell someone
Only one person in my life knows i’m depressed and s*icidal. I wish i could tell someone else but i’m so afraid to. Anyone i’ve ever told in the past has just not cared or has left me because of it. It hurts so deeply not being able to trust my friends. I think if something happens to me would they be surprised. I feel so alone.
@Piscesrising08
Hi Piscesrising, I see you and I hear you.
I am so sorry to hear that others have not been helpful or supportive when you shared your depression and suicidal ideation in the past. Our society has developed such a taboo around such topics and that does make it easier for those struggling to reach out for help.
I want you to know that posting on here is a great first step, and I hope that you see how much strength it takes to post about how you feel. You took the time to log in, sit down, click that post to thread button, and type out coherently what it is that is on your mind and the impact that sharing has had in the past.
I appreciate the vulnerability that this takes and I hope that you derive it as strength - strength to start a chat with a peer (offered by 7Cups volunteers :) ), strength to call or text a helpline (that may be accessible to you depending on where you live), strength to bring it up with your doctor who could then refer you to a specialist. It could even be strength for something smaller, strength to keep coming back and checking in on the depression forum, just to write how you are feeling out.
typo: the taboo doesn't make it easier for people to reach out***
I'm so sorry about you story. Life is hard isn't it? But don't worry as long as you believe in you self and have faith everything will be fine. Try to not think much about the bad side of life. Enjoy your life with your love ones. Try opening to someone who knows you betterand can give you good advises. Stop listening to negativity. Bring positive things to your life. I hope this help 🙂.tq
