Just alone

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Hey there sweetheart. I'm glad that you posted this and that you're searching for help, really brave from you.

Firstly, you need to know that if you're getting farther and farther, it's understandable why are they, as you say, ignoring you. Because, try to think realistic: If someone will stop talking to you, what would you do ? From my perspective, or what will I do will be just.. nothing.

Maybe they think that you don't want to be friends with them, who knows ? There are many options and you can't really know what's in their head. But you feel lonely and that's why you think that this is kinda an attack to your personality, to you, like they hate you and like they ignore you or something. You pay attention to some little details that they surely don't pay attention to.

As I've told you, you see like they are doing bad things to you because you feel lonely and when we feel bad we see everything like attack, some insult, or something like that. So I guess it's normal to feel that way, like you're being rejected. But you're not, it's only a feeling. I've been through same stuff like you so I know.

And I know it seems like it's truth... But try to look at that all from different perspective.
Maybe they are not leaving. Maybe they see you like you're not interested, and then they behave like that because they want to be with someone who's interested in them. Do you understand what I'm trying to tell you ?

As I said, there can be so, so many options. Try to think a little more about it. What if now you don't see things as they are ?

Try to be positive to them, interested in them, talk with them about their interests. Share things with them. Talk. Try to be relaxed. (If you have problems with relaxation I can help you with that too).

And okay. Even if you're alone, even if you don't have anyone, even if everyone is leaving... Say to yourself: "So what ?" Ask yourself, can you change that ? Because, being sad about it and worrying about it can't change anything, only your emotions you have for yourself and them and world and future and generally everything can get worse. If you can change it, you totally won't if you just sit there and worry, cry or something similar. I'm not trying to judge you, sue you - I'm trying to be realistic. I don't want you or anyone else to make the same mistakes I made. That's why I'm telling you this.

So, get a tissue, wipe tears, stand up and go on. You are definitely strong. Do what you can. And I'm sure that you can do a lot to change everything that's happening. I know it's fucking hard, it must be. And don't expect to get everything after one day, even one week trying to change everything - if you give up on that, then you're again falling into same shit and then you're going in circle. Don't let yourself to fall into that circle again. Okay ?

I'm sure you'll get what you need. Because, everyone needs love, and that's a fact. Especially teenagers, lost in space and time. We need love the most.

Just be patient. AND DON'T GIVE UP !!!! That's the most important thing.

And yeah... If you want, you can always talk to me. I will always be here for you, if you need a talk, or something.

Lots of love,
Elizabeth