Just a thought..
Ever wonder why you deserved what youve been forced to go through? Am I just a bad person or what? I'm tired of hearing "it's all gonna be okay" or "god puts his strongest through the most". Like stop. I'm tired.. I'm so tired. I feel hopeless. I'm worthless to everyone around me. I hate this feeling. That dark sunken mood that I get sucked into. My stomach in knots, mind is black as night, my heart just being ripped. Why do you think people have to go through this...?
@LadyCoCo Hey, I'm really sorry you're going through all this. I can't say I understand exactly, but I have definitely felt similarly. It's the absolutely worst feeling ever.
Honestly, I have thought about this too. What I feel is that no one deserves to go through this, it's the worst feeling ever, but what I tell myself is that 'everything happens for a reason'. All this stuff is happening to make me a stronger person. Maybe I was doing something wrong with my life then, and this entire experience will make me a better person, a stronger person, for me to go through whatever it is that will be thrown at me in the future. And I'm sure this will make us more kind and understanding people, more empathetic of others in our situations, cos honestly, I feel most people won't understand what it's like for us, unless they've ever been through it.
I know you're really tired of hearing this, I was sick of hearing all these stuff too then. I really hope you'll be able to pull yourself out of this, or find someone who can help you. Keep your mind busy, try to focus on work or watching a show, reading a book, and hopefully that will be the first step to getting better. All the best, and anytime you need to talk, I'm here. Stay strong! 💗
