Loneliness, Bullying, Suicide, Depression - My hell of a life :(
Hello all. currently i am struggling with severe depression and loneliness. Im always alone in the world. Everyone at my school (2000 students) and i mean EVERYONE hates me. I have no friends there. or anywhere infact. im just so lonely and depressed all the time. Ive been thinking about killing myself for 2 years now. i have been SUPER close to actually doing it. I have this thing where i think EVERYONE hates me. I have really bad trust issues, anxiety & a whole bunch of other things. its messing with me. Im that kid at school who sits alone and is always quiet. Whenever someone talks to me or tries to be friends with me (Who would want to be friends with me? ewww) i just say no because i always think they feel bad for me and are doing it just to make me feel better about myself. Not because they truly care about me. I hate going out in public. I always get looks (because im ugly n stuff) :(. Anyway i could go on forever about all my problems. this is just the tip of the iceberg.
the main reason i started this thread was to see if anyone knew a good listener that could help with all stuff stated above and more.
Im in such a bad place i just need someone to talk to before i actually go kill myself.
Thank You So Much for reading! i hope you have a lovely Day/Night
Unfortunately I don't know of any good listeners but still wanted to respond to your post. I know what it's like to be in such a dark place and to not see a way out and it can be terrifying. I hope you can find someone in your life to talk to and that they're supportive. But I also want to say that even if you don't immediately find someone, that you don't give up. Not everyone can understand depression and suicidal thoughts. That doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you it just means that they don't know how to process it or how to help. I hope you realize that you are worth it. Things might not get better tomorrow but things will eventually get better. Hang in there and know that a random stranger is rooting for you!
