My depression
I usually feel trapped or overwhelming most days but lately it's like I'm a puppet in my own life and everything I do is not really happening, its like I'm watching myself live this fake life, I've tried looking for professional help but I don't have money so I had to try getting it through a clinic , the process was horrible, it took four weeks of telling doctors I was suicidal waiting in offices before I could see someone and then I meet the guy, I told him a little about how I was feeling and he responded with do I have a girlfriend ,I said no and then he told me to get one or he just doesn't see a future for me and he left and told me to come back in three weeks, I never went back. I can't talk to friends as they believe this is just self pity and I should be over this by now. Things aren't going so well right now and I don't really know why I try, I'm really tired of all this, there is alot more stuff still going which I'm leaving out because its just pointless mentioning everything, this Is how I feel every day
I haven't eaten in five days. I cut myself twice this week and was in emergency yesterday for sever panic attacks. I feel like I have no one who understands
@Inlovewithcats
I'm sad to hear what you're going through. It's tough dealing with the anxiety and overwhelming pain. I know it's hard to work up the motivation and energy but have you considered getting your meds reevaluated? It might help you feel better.
@Inlovewithcats I hope you've been feeling better. If you ever feel lonely or depressed and want someone to talk to please don't hesitate to message me. I know how it feels too
i know and understand how you feel. It's horrible. When I say I feel numb ppl don't understand how bad feeling numb is... The regular ppl just don't and can't know. They have no experience to draw from. Sometimes I can imagine that on dead because ppl ignore me now. pls try to breathe thru the impulse to soothe with physical harm... or count or...idk... maybe we could come up with some other thing to do instead of cutting...
I feel like a leftover. My life is over and has been that way for awhile. there's been some mistake or oversight that will be remedied soon, I hope. I should have past away by now.
@Allison1964 I really hope things start to get better for you. It sucks feeling like the entire world is against you and you feel like you have no purpose. Try taking things one day at a time. I will be pulling for you
