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Exabit October 23rd, 2019

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Exabit OP October 23rd, 2019

blah... I give up.. Can't publish my story.. :( I keep getting the you may be in crisis message... :(

now how do I delete this thread?

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frigidstars27 October 23rd, 2019

@Exabit

Hello--I have the same thing happen with some of my posts. This indicates that there's some word or phrase in your post that the 7Cups filter thinks is indicating that you're in a state of crisis. If you can figure out what the word is and rewrite it (or add punctuation to it so that the filter no longer recognizes it), you can get by that way with trial and error.

Usually what I do is write my posts in Notepad and then paste into 7Cups when I'm done. That way I have my own copy in case if the site decides to delete everything I've written.

Of course, if you really are in a super-desperate state of crisis, then the filter has some validity (i.e. the 7Cups community isn't trained to deal with crisis intervention/suicide prevention, so it's best to go to another site with volunteers/helpers who are specifically trained in that).

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Exabit OP October 23rd, 2019

@frigidstars27

Hi, I have a saved copy in my word document.. :) I have tried censoring all the possible words and rephrase most sentences, but I still can't get pass the "crisis mode"... lol

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frigidstars27 October 23rd, 2019

@Exabit Oh yuck, I'm sorry. Only suggestion I can make other than to keep searching is to try posting it in a few smaller posts/chunks until you're able to identify which specific bit it doesn't like.

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Exabit OP October 24th, 2019

@frigidstars27

it worked.. :p finally was able to post it in chunks! haha.. Thanks!! smiley

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Exabit OP October 24th, 2019

I am 37 years old, and I have been suffering from depression for several years now. I was also suicidal before, but now somehow my depression has toned down... I am a single dad, where I am also the sole guardian of my child. The mom doesn't support us at all, although she would take our child during school vacations.

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Exabit OP October 24th, 2019

I believe my depression started when me and my wife started our falling out. That was when I tried doing it, for 4 times… All of those failed, and I just couldn't do it. On my last attempt, I drank silver cleaner... I drank it with some antihistamine and Coke... When I woke up the next morning, I felt fine and nothing happened to me, Somehow, I was able to vomit everything I drank. I also felt and saw the sun's ray directly on me (I stayed there for a few months and never did the sun shine on me, and I am an atheist), you can call it what you want but this gave me new hope, and I never tried committing s***** anymore.

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Exabit OP October 24th, 2019

Few years later, after several failures with relationships, here I am again. Although this time, as I am the only person my child can rely on, suicide is no longer an option for me. I do from time to time would wish for all of this to be over...

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Exabit OP October 24th, 2019

Two reasons why I feel this way are love and money. I easily fall in love with a girl, and when I do, I do give my all. However, I keep falling for the wrong person or I just couldnt make it work. While for money, I do have a stable job, I get to earn, but somehow it is not enough for me and my child. We don't really spend much, and I'm trying to be able to give my child the best education there is. To the point where I don't have any left for me anymore. Now, every time I go on dates, my mind would always ask, what's the point of doing these, when I won't be able to afford marrying this girl at all. Every time I court a girl, I would also break down once rejected… I am one of those who long or wish for that happily ever after…

I am someone who smiles a lot, but deep down, I feel very lonely. There are days where I would just skip work and sleep or watch TV all day… I would always think on why I cant find my happiness, or why I cant be happy with love… I feel alone and would sometimes randomly message a stranger in a dating app just to be able to talk to someone… I am most probably the same as the others, who still feels incomplete even with great people surrounding us every day…

Sometimes, I would think that all these things happening to me are all bad karma to what I have done. When my ex was pregnant with our child, we tried to have it aborted… I know I have also broken other hearts; I even know of 2 other girls whom I got pregnant but never did own the child. There are others I believe, but never did I bother knowing… I have stolen money, and even did some other stuff that could have gone very very wrong… But if it is karma, when would these end… It is very frustrating to see, that there are other people worst than me, but are able to enjoy their life… I do feel tired and want to give up, if not only for my child…

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