No friends or family

Hello I’m 29 and I have no family to turn to. I grew up in a domestic violence environment. Never knew my father and my mother was hardly there for me. I grew up poor with water and lights going on and off monthly. Only good I got to eat was at school. My mom was into the street life so she’d be gone 3 days in row be home for one night then be gone again. Once I became old enough to work she’s guilt trip me into taking all my money only leaving me with enough to pay my phone bill. Iv had to try and understand life and find my way sense as far back as I could remember. I was sexually assaulted by a family member when I was 6 to about 7. I was told by my mom to not talk about it to nobody. By 17 I started dating and all of my relationships have been toxic. Iv been abused and cheated on and lies lies lies, used for my money. Just a lot too much to text. The current relationship I’m in he’s mean also but he is aware that I have no one to turn to. So he’s verbally abusive by reminding me that nobody cares about me and I do nothing for him but he does everything for me. I want to run away but idk where to go or what to do with my life. I quit my job over a year ago because it was too stressful. Im depleting physically emotionally and spiritually. I don’t trust people easily and the people I do end up trusting end up turning their backs on me. I thought I grew out of my depression in my mid 20s but the more research I do I realize Im considered or was considered high functioning depression. Sorry if this sounds scattered or makes no sense.