Nothing to do. All day, every day. *help me*
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I have nothing to do. All day, every day. My twin brother is gone, (my fault) Not dead, just gone. No friends, not even Internet one's.
And even if I did my mother thinks I'm 'addicted to the internet' and thinks that I watch really f'd up s*it..So she'd steal my computer while I'm sleeping. And my computer is the only thing keeping me kinda sane. I wish I could at least go swimming, we live in Florida for f*cks sake. It's 90 degrees every day. But the visable red marks on my thigh's prevent me from doing that.
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Nothing to do...Every time I get a Youtube notifaction I nearly jump in the air. When's the last time I saw someone my own age...Hmm a few weeks ago maybe at Publix. I suppose I am lucky to have a dog. That hates me. That also won't play. Fetch? no. Tug o' War? no. At least lick my face? no. Maybe a puppy will cure my Suicidal Depression...
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Oh and my pet rat that I had for nearly 7 years died a few days ago as well. Which triggered a frekin relapse yesturday, I mean it was pretty sad. I'm at a Low point in my short life.
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This was more a weird rant than anything. I just wanted to vent? What WAS the point of making this stupid thread? Can anyone at ALL relate? so many questions so little time. Any comments are greatly appreciated.
Stay Street
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Hey, hon! I'm sorry to hear you are not doing well right now. I'm glad you came through! I saw that you mentioned how depressed you are feeling, to the point of suicidal depression. I just wanted to encourage you to use this number or website if you are in crisis ( 1-800-273-8255 or www.suicide.org). Keep on going on, I know it's a tired phrase, but it does get better.
@TOPaddict Hope tomorrow is better for you! We all have those days when we think everything that could possibly go wrong is, But the stuff u wanna do and cant , that doesnt mean u are suicidal, it just shows how much u actualy do wanna be part of life and cant for various reasons. I think the fact that u feel lonlely is the main thing you should work on right now.The internet friends,they are good for support, but definately you need to hang out and do things, with people youre own age.
Theres little ways you can connect with people, and you should let youre mother know that you are mature enough to make youre own decisions about the little things. Moms are protective to the point they want to control everything.Well , you cant. You can only put some moral values in youre kid and trust he or she is making good choices. And do get some sun, Shouldnt worry about a thing, a tan covers everything 
