Not okay
I'm not okay. I pretend I'm fine but I'm not. I put on a smile for everyone around me but no one really knows my pain.. I'm the nonchalant girl that laughs things off , people actually tell me how strong I am for going through the things that I been through and not letting those things break me ... But they did .. I'm broken and I hate myself for being broken .. I'm tired.. tired of smiling all day and crying alone all night till I'm to tired to cry . I'm tired of pretending that I'm alright and having to walk away before someone sees me break down..I don't know why I feel this way , or when it started I just know I want to get better .... I want to be okay
I relate to you a lot, but thats why its best that you speak to someone who you trust very much, there always has to be someone, if not, then someone here. Speaking what you feel will make things much better, trust me. Ive always been afraid to talk to someone not to burden them with what i go through behind closed doors, but then i remember that there are people around that care, everyone has them.
