Not sure what to do.
I'm in a depressive episode and no one knows. Im embarrassed to tell anyone, and when I mention I'm depressed, my friends shrug it off. Im very smiley and optimistic...in person. I act this way so others will want to be around me. But it is a lie. I hide in my room on days when I feel my personality would bring others down...which is happening much more often. I just needed to share this with someone. Thanks for listening.
@indigoTalker4170
I can't say what goes through your friend's mine, but many people don't even understand what depression is, you know? Maybe they want to help but don't even know exactly what it is. Also the fact you're optimistic (something very common with depressed people) might be tricky so they might think is not real.
Either way I want to say that you're not alone. You, me and many other people go through depression and there's nothing to be ashamed about. Is something we can't control and we aren't at fault for it. Be kind to yourself and realise that sometimes we can't control everything, but what we can do is to cling to what we have, in your case cling to 7cups! You're doing wonderful for venting so keep doing it! You have daily threads where you can vent, you can do a thread just like you did or even choose to vent to a listener :)
But one thing's for sure, you're never alone! 
@Booklover95 Thank you so much! It realy does feel good to share that, and know that someone heard. 
@indigoTalker4170
No problem! Feel free to vent away at anytime :)
@indigoTalker4170
I understand how you feel. So many times I feel like I'm two different people. When I'm around others, I act happy, but when I'm by myself, I get really depressed. I'm sorry your friends don't seem to think it's a big deal. But just know you're not alone!
@BrokenBell1 Thank you! I feel better now that I have found a safe place to talk out this. Just knowing that there are others I can talk to who feel how I feel... it means a lot.
@indigoTalker4170
Of course!!!! I'm so glad to be able to help