Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav

Please help

User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 December 28th, 2014

Someone please help me I don't know where to turn anymore.my doctor put me on depressionmeds and I'm getting worse. I wakeup just wanting to die. He said he wants psych to take over my meds but i can't find counseling or a psychiatrist that take my insurance. I'm so sad all of the time I don't know what to do. My friends are worried i don't really want to die i just want to stop hurting. Please help me I want to get better

43
User Profile: 8thnotesflow
8thnotesflow December 28th, 2014

let's talk, I'm not a professional but I want to help,

33 replies
User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 OP December 28th, 2014

Ijust don't know what to do .I feel like crying but i can't even do that

32 replies
User Profile: 8thnotesflow
8thnotesflow December 28th, 2014

I understand the not crying part, haven't had a good cry in years even at my lowest moments, let start with something somewhat simple but can be complex, what makes you sad

28 replies
User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 OP December 28th, 2014

I can't even tell you why I'm so low honestly this doesn't even make senseto me. Everything is going all ihave good friends I just got to see my family and I just got a promotion at work. And yet I still have thought about killing myself multiple times today. I had to go to my friend's house to keep myself safe

27 replies
User Profile: 8thnotesflow
8thnotesflow December 28th, 2014

have you been like this for a long period of Time?

26 replies
User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 OP December 28th, 2014

I have suffered depression and anxiety almost my whole life..... I just don't want to hurt myself anymore

25 replies
User Profile: 8thnotesflow
8thnotesflow December 28th, 2014

also, too just backing up for a sec. with the suicide part, do you actually visualize, as in premeditation of the act itself or is it along the line of suicidal thoughts where you don't just want to live

8 replies
User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 OP December 28th, 2014

I just don't want to live....... I have a plan and everything. I will do anything at this point to make it all stop

7 replies
User Profile: 8thnotesflow
8thnotesflow December 28th, 2014

please don't follow out with that plan, though I haven't seen your face I imagine that you are a beautiful person and I mean that with sincerity. it's not your time to go. you said yourself that you have good friends and family and I'm sure they all love you very much, I have another question though about your professional help, how were things before they started medicating you?

6 replies
User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 OP December 28th, 2014

I was better before the meds honestly. I just don't see a point anymore. I feel like I'm not meant to get the help I need

5 replies
load more
load more
load more
load more
load more
load more
load more
load more
load more
load more
User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 OP December 28th, 2014

I honestly feel worthlessand pathetic and I beat myself up for this disease every day

8 replies
User Profile: 8thnotesflow
8thnotesflow December 28th, 2014

but you're not, you're worth just as much if not more than any other person living. and you CANNOT blame yourself. You didn't choose this life status. but if you truly believe, you can change that or if anything make it so that you're not constantly suffering like this

7 replies
User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 OP December 28th, 2014

I'm trying hard to make it stop

6 replies
User Profile: 8thnotesflow
8thnotesflow December 28th, 2014

fight hard for it. find that happy place in your heart. focus on what you love and the parts that make your life good

5 replies
User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 OP December 28th, 2014

I try to. My head is so fuzzy. I feel lost

4 replies
User Profile: 8thnotesflow
8thnotesflow December 28th, 2014

it's ok we can fight the fog together. tell me this, besides your friends and family. what do you love?

3 replies
User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 OP December 28th, 2014

Nothing

2 replies
User Profile: 8thnotesflow
8thnotesflow December 28th, 2014

do you have a favorite place to visit?

1 reply
User Profile: angel9109
angel9109 OP December 28th, 2014

No. imdoing good if i get out of bed

load more
load more
load more
load more
load more
load more
load more
load more