Please help
Someone please help me I don't know where to turn anymore.my doctor put me on depressionmeds and I'm getting worse. I wakeup just wanting to die. He said he wants psych to take over my meds but i can't find counseling or a psychiatrist that take my insurance. I'm so sad all of the time I don't know what to do. My friends are worried i don't really want to die i just want to stop hurting. Please help me I want to get better
let's talk, I'm not a professional but I want to help,
Ijust don't know what to do .I feel like crying but i can't even do that
I understand the not crying part, haven't had a good cry in years even at my lowest moments, let start with something somewhat simple but can be complex, what makes you sad
I can't even tell you why I'm so low honestly this doesn't even make senseto me. Everything is going all ihave good friends I just got to see my family and I just got a promotion at work. And yet I still have thought about killing myself multiple times today. I had to go to my friend's house to keep myself safe
have you been like this for a long period of Time?
I have suffered depression and anxiety almost my whole life..... I just don't want to hurt myself anymore
wow, thats alot to deal with.... what do you like to do for fun?
also, too just backing up for a sec. with the suicide part, do you actually visualize, as in premeditation of the act itself or is it along the line of suicidal thoughts where you don't just want to live
I just don't want to live....... I have a plan and everything. I will do anything at this point to make it all stop
please don't follow out with that plan, though I haven't seen your face I imagine that you are a beautiful person and I mean that with sincerity. it's not your time to go. you said yourself that you have good friends and family and I'm sure they all love you very much, I have another question though about your professional help, how were things before they started medicating you?
I was better before the meds honestly. I just don't see a point anymore. I feel like I'm not meant to get the help I need
don't give up, I can tell that you're really trying to get better but due to unfortunate circumstances it's limiting you, have you not taken the mess for any period of time since having been put on them, it may be that the side effects are making it worse rather than helping not all meds work as they claim
No I am really good about taking them every day.
now this is experimental but it may help, pick a day where for 24 hours you don't take the meds keep someone with you in case the effects are negative, but I have the slightest feeling that A. your prescription needs to be changed to something else or B. stopping could be a gradual step to making it better. but like I said it's experimental but I would only suggest doing it for a day. it's up to you if you want to try but it could possibly help
I'm willing to try just about anything at this point
well go ahead and give it a try. pick a day where for 24 hours you won't be alone. and if it comes out positive keep doing it
another thought to put out there so that I can understand you a bit better, besides when you have these thoughts how would you generally describe your mood throughout the day
It fluctuates there are too many different variables for me to be able to answer thatquestion
I can comprehend that
imsorry it was stupid of me to reach out
no it wasn't at all, don't ever feel that way,
I always feel that way. i feelguilty for feeling this way
y feel guilty over something that you didn't cause nor desire to actually happen, you're not to blame for how you are, and you shouldn't be ashamed of the fact that you're needing help, you deserve to be truly happy just as everyone else
I'm sorry. I feel like this is all my fault
I always feel that way. i feelguilty for feeling this way
it really isn't your fault
All I can think about right now is how bad I want to hurt myself. I'm trying to distract myself but it isn't working
try listening to your favorite song, or eat a snack/meal
I don't eat I also have an eating order.......
Oh my dear, I wish I could be there in physical person to take care of you
I'm I'm so messed up. At this point I feel like that's what I need is someone who can take care of me
also too if you don't mind me asking how old are you?
I'm 23
you're not too much older than I am, I'm 19,
I honestly feel worthlessand pathetic and I beat myself up for this disease every day
but you're not, you're worth just as much if not more than any other person living. and you CANNOT blame yourself. You didn't choose this life status. but if you truly believe, you can change that or if anything make it so that you're not constantly suffering like this
I'm trying hard to make it stop
fight hard for it. find that happy place in your heart. focus on what you love and the parts that make your life good