Severely Depressed
In the recent months of High School, I've completely changed. Lost all interest in academics, friends and family. I've tried to hide my changed behavior to my family, friends, teachers and counselors. I want to hide my changes because I don't want to be sent to some fucking camp where they make me "happier". I've become incredibly lazy and I've begun to become anti-social. Wearing my hoodie everywhere, avoiding talking or initiating conversations with anyone. It's become really hard to avoid the changes, I think I've begun to raise some suspicion around me. My grades have dropped significantly, as in failing most my classes, and my parents and counselor and teachers have been on my ass about this, as it seems to be their first fucking priority. I just want to escape and tell everyone to go fuck themselves.
I've even had thoughts about just dropping out and becoming a criminal. Human trafficking, hitman and robber has come to mind. I just simply do not care anymore what happens to me, or anyone else. I have no feelings for anyone anymore.
I don't know the cause of this, or how I should "fix" it. Help?
It's completely normal to undergo a time of sadness, whether it be depression or not. It's not about how far you fell at this point it's about what you're willing to do to get to where you want to be. I can understand that's it grew into this big pattern but if you look at something as a whole it's harder to address than it is to look at it piece by piece. If you start focusing on yourself a little bit first until you're feeling a bit better, then you can focus on schooling and other things. I know it's really difficult but I can only promise you that it's worth it! You have all of us here to support you! :)
