Should get this vented out

Hey all, im juzzy, in the past i would of said im Juzzy, C.E.O of GFD, an organization dedicated to supporting and changing the stigma around gamers and mental illness, but recently i was forced out of my position and place within the organization, as most gamers know the general gaming scene is very toxic, and i guess after 3yrs of creating and running that place and trying to keep the toxic out it got in, long story short, a selection of people i called friends and mods ended up turning the team against myself and after months of trying to defuse the situation resulted in either me stepping down or 90% of the team leaving which would result in those seeking shelter there losing their home... so i stepped down so they could have their home still safe, here i am, i find myself lost, the place i poured my heart and soul into now forced out of, but gotta keep my chin up right? Been volunteering here for the last 3yrs on and off and still am cause im so passionate about helping those who cannot seek help, gamers especially, no one should walk the dark alone, in a way im relieved that i dont have the pressure of that place anymore but also very much in pain and upset without it, i suffer depression and anxiety and i use my life experiences to help everyone i can, ive done it so long that my only way to cope is block it out, but its hard when every hour i get a message off someone regarding gfd :/ it hurts and its really getting to me..