Someone help me

I am a college sophomore, 2nd semester, 20 years old. Some of you may have spoken to me before, and if you're wondering, you will soon realize I haven't gotten better.

Long story short, I consider myself a very kind, loving, sensitive, understanding person. That's my personality, so what you are about to read can't be explained through my personality. As long as I can remember, humanity has seemed to hate my being here. Literally everyone talks behind my back. No one will ever sit next to me. No one ever responds to me when I say hello. There have recently been incidents in my classes starting a few semesters ago in which people have dropped the class to refuse working with my in groups presentations. I have been removed from several social clubs because no one enjoyed my being there. I was forced into a single dorm room 1st semester freshmen year because no one wanted to be my roommate. There is so much more, but I'm tired of typing. So, I'll cut right to the chase. And oh, please don't tell me to see a Counselor, because every single time I have spoken to one, they do not believe what I'm saying, and refuse to believe I am hated this much, so they cannot help me. And do not tell me that some people are just bad, since 1000+ students have acted this way around me, and cannot be within 10 feet from me without gagging. I also do not come off as desperate, depressed, or annoying, so there's that.

I give the people who read this, a way of helping me, a twisted sort of ultimatum I guess.

Clearly, I won't ever make friends, whether it's just platonic or people who genuinely love me. My family is abusive, so I have no family either. So here it is.To end my suffering, should I end my life? Or do I live my life in pain and suffering? This will never get better. I am regarded as something worse than Hitler. I have blades that can well slit the wrists enough so I die, and the best part is, no one in the dormitory will realize I'm dead in this room for months.

I don't care if this post gets taken down, I will continue to post this until I get a reasonable answer. I am also a listener, and have helped over a hundred people. I don't deserve to be treated this way, I deserve an answer.