@Haileykra9764 from reading what you wrote, i conclude this that you are a very strong person. You've come so far even though you've gone through so much in your life. I personally can relate to your story. Been harassed, been in a toxic relationship, gone through depression and anxiety, left school for an year and even locked myself up in my room but guess what? Doing all of this did no better for me. The day i told myself that im gonna live for myself and for nobody else i got strong. I broke up with the person myself which was such a big thing that i did given the fact i loved them. I started going to school and now am nearly done with my high school. All you gotta do is believe in yourself. No boyfriend, no memory is as important as your physical and mental health. Better to put the trash in the trashcan rather carrying it and letting it soil your clothes! You're a strong person and you can get through this. Just believe in yourself and know your self worth.