Suicide and more...
Hello, I live in Turkey. At some point in my life, I started to not be able to enjoy anything anymore.
I have been feeling very bad for more than the last 1 year.
I went to therapy, I went to a psychiatrist, I was hospitalized.
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Now I feel more tired every day.
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Tomorrow I will see another psychiatrist for the last time.
Doctors don't understand me. Some claim that I am addicted to alcohol, some claim that I am a drug addict.
However, I'm not an addict, it's not alcohol or drugs.
I tried to get all the help I could get. Nobody helped.
The doctor in the best hospital I can go to in the city I live told me, I can't help you, go to another hospital.
Nobody really understands me.
I'm so lonely.
I'm trying so hard not to be sad anymore.But I'm too tired.
I really don't know what to do.
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My English is not very good, sorry if I wrote something wrong.
I'm not writing to expect anything from anyone, just to pour my heart out.
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@Nightshade4271 Hey I wish there was something I could say to help you feel better - something I could do to show you a flicker of hope. Did something happen to set off your feeling bad for the past year?
I suppose before I say more I should probably tell you that Cups isn't equipped to handle crisis of this kind and that there are links HERE that you can go to
That being said - I want you to know that even though we're just virtual here - I'm sitting with you. I'm sorry that the doctors keep telling you they can't help you - it's very disheartening and frustrating when the people you turn to just seem so willing to walk away. Has anyone tried any medicines? There may even be a reason that some meds aren't working because not every medicine works for everyone and they have to try different things and those can take time to get into your system and actually start to work
What would help the loneliness? I guess - I just want you to know - you're not alone ok? I hear you - I see you ok? Just don't do anything rash ok? Let's take a deep breath and just take things one moment at a time ok?