The North Korean situation...it's making me go insane.

Becoming racist(and I'm a black man,btw),Commited to suicide,having zero hope for the future,Having to give up on going to Japan,
...Unable to be really happy,having no optimism for the future...

The North Korean situation,coupled with my life being the farthest thing from ideal that there is(Job search difficulties even though I just got a B.A,difficult parents,etc.) Makes me convinced that the way out is to take my own life..to just die.

And even with that,I'm scared..but I..I just want out of all this.

I mean,nothing matters anymore and we're gonna have a nuclear war soon anyway! I mean,why not go out on your own damn terms?

I wish suicide wasn't so damn scary..because death is something that actually happens to us all,and it wouldn't be nothing to speed up the process..but it's scary none the less.

It just feels like there is no hope. to me anyway.

Why live in that case?