The bad side of me I think
I often change my personality because when I was little, my teacher told me that I should change myself so I can get friends. I did that, but now I don't know myself.
I always act happy and being optimistic person in front of people. But actually I not feel that way. I always wear mask when I'm with other people, but when I alone I can't control my mind. I always ask my self, who am I, is this the real me, is this what I want to be.
Someone just told me that I should find where actually I belong to and who am I actually. I don't know how to find that. Even I forget the real side of me. I don't know the real side of me.
I want to find out but I know I can't so I just stay quiet.
@JiKyung34
Using mask and hiding are feelings are very hard. I know a lot of my friends don't know that I have depression so I do know how you feel. Have you looked into turning the mind? You can also find other useful DBT information on that web page.
My new therapist gave me an assignment yesterday which might help you also find out who you are: List thinigs that make you. What are you good at?
You shouldn't stay quiet and you shouldn't hold things in since holding things in just makes us feel worse. CBT is another helpful resouce that might help you and you can find worksheets here.