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@calmPaul281, my ex girlfriend emotionally abused me heavily. i started a new medication that had made me react violently to the stress. Any time we would argue, I would try to leave the room so I could calm down and not be angry, and she would constantly say of course youre leaving or if you leave, we are done even though I explained to her, that I leave so I can control my anger. One day she told me my insecurities about her and another guy are all in my head and irrational, so she didnt have to listen. Her and this other guy would hang out alone when I was at work. She would give him rides to and from school every day. She told me slap me you wont. I lost my cool and slapped her. Then she stood up and walked towards me. I pushed her. She kept trying to tell other people how horrible I was. I really lost it and spit on her. Nothing I did was right. I regret it deeply. im making efforts to make sure it doesnt happen again. Im getting off my medication because before I started it, I had never been violent. Im going to therapy, and Im on a waiting list for a psychiatrist. I got expelled from school and shes pressing charges. I saw that she caught feelings for another guy already. Her and her friends harass one of my only friends for information about it, and they constantly talk about my past with gender identity issues I had. I feel like a target for hatred, and anyone affiliated with me is suffering because of it.