Things are getting really bad
TW for suicide, suicidal urges, and abuse
Things are really bad for me right now. Im trying to get a job without my abusive parents knowing, but Im really anxious about it because I know theyll ask a ton of questions and I dont know what Im gonna say, because they specifically forbid me from getting this job. I have to take college classes I dont want because my parents control my future, my homework is due tonight and i dont understand a single freaking thing. I have to do everything on my own and I have no support system. I have no friends and I cant get to a therapist, and Im so stressed out.
Im so tired people, I dont want to do this anymore. Ive tried texting a suicide hotline twice now and it hasnt helped. My problems are still here. I just want everything to stop and be done with. I dont want to live anymore. If even just one person tells me Im allowed to take my own life, Im going through with it. I dont think things are gonna get better anytime soon, and I dont really feel like sticking around until they do. I just want to sleep forever.
@RedMouse
I'm here and I care! You need to check with a therapist and/or even a listener here on 7cups. They are wonderful human beings who have helped me tremendously and I know they will help you. BREATHE! You are loved and you are not alone! 
@Lifer
Thank you so much ❤️ Im still around and I feel a bit better than last night. Im trying to look into mental health services near me, hopefully I can find something that doesnt cost too much.
@RedMouse
How can I help?
@RedMouse Please!
@RedMouse
Run! Run away from home. We all do at some point. Now is the time to run. Find a life.
@charbydis
I wish I could run away, haha. I have a bike, I have a way to keep in touch with my little brother, who is pretty much the only family member I care about, and Im old enough to legally live on my own. I dont know if I could do it though, Id really miss him and the pets we have. Thank you for replying, I cant wait to move out honestly :)
Dealing with school, your family and your depression combined is very stressful. Back in the day when I was in school I remember often feeling so much pressure and all it took was for a grueling assignment or an exam to make me want to give up. You probably need a break. Power through, do your assignment and plan something nice for yourself this weekend. Take one problem at a time. Stay strong...you got this.
@easyWater4109
Thank you. I did get my assignments done last night, today Im focusing on doing what homework I can and then Im going to relax. :)
@RedMouse You sound like you're in a much better place and i'm so happy that you are! I highly suggest you still contact a 7 cipsl listener so that you always have that emotional support.
@RedMouse
Also, remember that school won
