Too Much
I know my main problem is lack of sleep. Literally my whole life I've struggle with setting a regular sleep schedule. I am naturally a night owl but there have only been a couple of brief periods in my life when staying up at night was okay. I have an office job and two kids. I need sleep on a normal, regular schedule.
In the meantime my lack of sleep is exacerbating everything else. I'm fucking OVER being at home all day every day. I have no drive, no focus, no motivation. I'm supposed to be working right now. I'm on the clock. I don't fucking care I want to cry and go to sleep.
@brightCherry2988
Totally understand and relate to this. I am a nightshift paramedic with a 12 year old son who I am homeschooling at the moment. Lack of sleep is horrible to handle. Sorry you are going through this.
@Paramediclady1967
Thank you for the empathy! Thank you for the work that you do!! It's not for everyone. I've had many friends in that line of work and I know it can be an utterly exhausting and thankless job.
l tell myself my every single day/night...I will do better, I'll go to bed earlier. Then bam it's way-too-late o'clock again. Ugh.
@brightCherry2988
I do the exact same thing :)