Upset with myself
I have an app to help me keep track of when I do certain things, things that probably seem easy or almost irrelevant to many are difficult for me. I have two checks for washing my face, one for brushing my teeth, one for showering, and my day and night meds. I've taken my meds and have managed to shower at least every other day but I've failed at all the others. It sounds so stupid but even knowing I haven't done a couple of these today I can't find the energy to get up and do them. A lot of my energy gets focused on work, just getting out of bed some days is hard enough but being a cashier with a smile, I'm exhausted. And yet even though these are solid reasonings I still feel like a failure. These words screaming in my head. Failure. Pathetic. Weak. And I just really want a hug but I don't know how to ask for one. I'm just going to cuddle with my dog and try to sleep.
@SuperWhoLock1988 A big hug to you my friend. I'm sorry that you feel like a failure right now. I know how hard it can be to do those things that seem easy for others. And to smile all the time in your work! It's hard to believe it now with that voice in your head, but I still want you to know that I think you are doing an AMAZING job. You are moving mountains my friend. We are here for you. Soon, I hope you feel this too. ❤️
@SuperWhoLock1988
Hellomthere,
I was going to add to @Oyster reply, but they said it perfectly.
Your doing amazing, and making steps, it doesn't matter how big or small those steps are, because each one is equally important.
Your doing great, I'm proud of your for trying so hard ❤️
@professionalPerspective60 and @oyster thank you so much. I really needed to hear that. Work was hard today.
@SuperWhoLock1988 - I know this may not have been easy, so thankyou so much for sharing this with us all
I think that's great that you have an app to help you acheive these goals you have set yourself, as it definitely shows you taking a positive step in wanting to improve on things, even if only slightly Sorry to hear you're so exhausted, please remember to try and look after yourself as best as you can - even if that's just something like getting a bit more sleep. I'm really sorry to hear that you feel like such a failure too - I truly do know how horrible it can be to feel that way. I really hope that cudddling your dog helped, and please know that everyone here on 7cups is here for you! I wish you all the best, and from everything you've said, you're definitely not a failure
@SuperWhoLock1988
I worked in retail and just let me say, you are so much stronger than I am. I couldn't handle it, being nice to the rudest people and keeping a smile on my face. I wouldn't call what you have missed failures. You are doing a great job, you are keeping afloat and taking your meds. I would definitely give you a hug in person if I could, but heres a big one in spirit! *hugs*
