Wanting doesn’t have any feeling
I’ve been dealing with depression most my life. I feel like I am constantly battling myself. I’m scared to be happy because once I feel safe to be happy, everything crashes. Bad turns to worse and then everyone leaves me. I am lost, I feel betrayed, deserted and hopeless. Can every break up line not start with, you did nothing wrong. Why am I such a disappointment?
I’ve also been dealing with depression most of my life. It’s really hard to feel like I can be happy even now, it’s terrifying. I know I’m traumatized and every time I let myself think I feel all of it again and the depression hits after it stops. I don’t remember a time when I knew what it was like to be mentally healthy. I wish I could help you, just know your not the only one going through this.
